Helping oneself

How can I help someone if I can't help myself?
I have problems situations in which I cannot control....I have to choose to go through with them or leave them. 
When I go through with them I choose and I have to stand by my decision.  I have to be strong.  I cannot let myself fall because the only one that can help me is myself. 
I have to have hope inspiration positive attitude.  I am in charge of my own feelings and I shouldn't let anyone else choose my feelings for me. 

Love song

I am in love.  At least I think so with a man. I am certainly in love with my two daughters.  That is without a doubt. 

I'd like to think that a certain song was written about my new love and myself. .. but lately no love song fits us anymore. 

Could it be that I wasn't really in love?
Could it be that I'm not in love anymore?

What happened that I feel this way?
I hope that I don't fall into depression.  I would hate to be that person again. 

So what love song is about us?  I don't know.  I hope that I find that special song.  I need that song. 

But 2 is greater than 1

Everyone always wants to be #1. The first to finish a race. First to be better at someone.
I want to be first in someone's heart. Is that selfish of me? If that's what I do for you, then that's what I expect in return. Well at least im my world that's how it works.
Being number 2 sucks. Nobody likes to come in second especially in one's life.  I've have come in second and its time for me to be number one. 
I love being number one.
I will be number one!!
I am number one!!

To be friend or not to be friend

Sometimes you are blinded because you are into him. Its the beginning of the relationship and that is when it is the most beautiful. All is so perfect and nothing could go wrong.
I accepted that we could be friends until he made the fatal mistake of kissing me. Little did I know that, that would be the first and last time he would kiss me like that. I do not regret it. I am hurt by it though. I led my heart to believe that it was different this time. I feel so stupid!!
I had one goal in mind and I should have stuck to it. Ughhhhh! I vow not to let it happen again.
I feel sorry for the next guy who crosses my path. Its not his fault but if he really wants what I want then its not going to matter.
So now I am faced with the question...do I continue this friendship or do I take back my promise and tell him to f off?

Beginning of a broken heart

I feel like my heart hurts. My breathing is shallow and my eyes are swollen from crying. Its my own fault. I was told from the beginning. Why do I let my heart guide me? Why do I continue this pattern of behavior? What can I do to stop this insanity? I feel that this time this time this time is different. Its finally here. Love has found me and finally I'm going to have my fairytale. Why does it always end the same? My heart getting hurt! Somehow I don't learn. This time I hurt myself. I knew what I was getting into. I knew from the start. Nobody lied to me but myself. I have to be stubborn.

chivlary

What is your level of chivalry? Would you go back in time and throw your coat over a puddle so her shoes won't get dirty? Nowadays it's not when a thought because there it's concrete everywhere. People don't walk on non paved paths.
So what would be considered chivalrous today?
Opening door?
Pumping gas?
Paying for food?

loss

when we loose our keys we pray that we find them so we could get on our way. "please God let me find me keys so i can get to work"  After we find them we thank God.  "Thank you so much. Thank God!"
if we don't find them then we go to our back up plan.  either we have an extra set of keys or we could call in sick.  either way we are relieved that we can deal with that situation.

when we loose a loved one, we can pray for their soul. "please God take their soul in heaven and take care of them for us."  There is no relief weather they went to heaven or hell or even purgatory.  We also are left with an empty space where that person use to be.  It is a difficult time for everyone. 
Yes we hurt but we are being selfish!  God owns our souls and they are only going back to him.  We are made from the dust of the earth and we return back to the earth.

We should be rejoicing for them!  They finally get to go home.  Our time here on Earth is a short time and we should all understand it is borrowed time.  Make the most of it and love everyone in it! Please let the lost souls rest in peace with God by now worring about them or crying for them.